What is Time?


Today is June 1st.  No, for real.  It's JUNE now.  I can't really belive it either.  The concept of time feels especially fluid so far in 2020.  I've even found myself not knowing what day of the week it is.  My last few posts have been all about mental health and acknowledging that everyone goes through rough patches of uncertainty.  Right now, we are all feeling the uncertainty of COVID-19 together and we each have our own individual ways that we need to deal with it.

For me, I am looking at the next few months and trying to plan.  I've got daily items on a check list that I go through for my job searching.  I am still searching for more networking opportunities or people that I'd like to talk to about their own professional journeys into corporate wellness.  I'm keeping my mind active with online classes (I'm working on a Gamification class now with UPenn!).  I'm attempting to continue healing with physical therapy on my own, but this is sometimes a struggle without hands-on assistance.  Each day is a challenge in itself to remain optimistic and forward-thinking in a productive manner.

I haven't seen my family since last December.  For me, this is an incredibly long time and it has been weighing on me lately.  I've decided that I'm going to head to NJ, where I grew up, to spend a few weeks with family.  I'll be arriving ahead of them so I can quarantine before we will all be together.  I am hoping that a change of scenery will also do my psyche some good.  I have felt a bit stagnant the past week or so, as if my sense of purpose was fading due to frustration.

I'm allowing myself to feel these things and honestly try to take a break.  Trying not to worry might even help my normally disrupted sleep.  With the rumbling of riots and peaceful protests in the news over the past week, this might be a challange.  I don't want to be ill-informed, but I also don't want to drown in the bad news. 

We will see how that goes!

-Vicky 


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